It has been a long long long time ago since I last step foot here.. There is so many things going on in my head and I dont have a friend that I can share it with..=(
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I am now currently pursuing advanced diploma in financial accounting cum ACCA which means 2 in 1 and tat sucks!! Badly..! I am starting to think whether have I chosen the wrong course? Am i capable to complete my ACCA in 2years? I am starting to doubt my ability..But there is no way I can discuss it with my parents coz they will never understand and it is my own fault for insisting on choosing this course 2yrs back.. So, I will have to suck it up and complete it..
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Besides, I did badly for my previous sem exam and it affects my internship placement as i was hoping to enter one of the top 4 accounting firm. I feel that I am so useless.. Why am I so stupid? Knowing that I have no hope in entering my highly looked upon company,I have to apply to a few smaller firms and hopefully someone will wanna hire me. And fortunate enough, two of the companies that I have applied have responded. So now I am starting to worry where am I gonna stay and how to get to my office during my intern period as the location is not accessible to public transport.
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Another issue that has been going on in my head is my relationship problem.. If you are reading this, I am not trying to give u pressure.. I am sorry but I think this is the only way I can express myself .. I have been hurting someone that I love very very much so badly that it has come to a point of no return.. After the painful wake up call, I felt that my world is coming to an end..I even thought of doing the stupidest thing on earth..But luckily I didnt.. I am really afraid that I will lose him forever.. I admit that it's my fault and I am trying my very best to change..I really hope that everything will turn out to be Ok.. I promised that I will not hurt him anymore and sincerely seek for his forgiveness.. I will wait for the day where he come back to me and say I love U which I didnt realise it will mean so much to me.. Hopefully he will..
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I really need someone to hug me tightly now and tell me that everything is gonna be OK and tell me that I can do it.. I dunno how much will I be able to stand all this.. Sometimes,I really think of giving up everything and leave this place forever..Everything..
Please know that you are not alone. We all feel the same. At least I feel the same. I just want you to know that if you ever need a listening ear, you can call me, or msn me if you like. There are still people who care. Don't give up :)
ReplyDeleteThanks=) Appreciate it very much..!
ReplyDeleteyea! i also agree with loo!!
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